yes, i am back. is me.
no more emo no more play and no more sad.
at least not for few of you, those ‘friends’.
yup.
i know i keep done some stupid thing during this February and March.
don't ask me why? i also don't know myself.
i..i..just follow my feeling.
but the final result is hurt my own self.
stupid right? i am not the winner at last.
i know! i know i am not the time to get a boy friend. i am too alone.
boy friend is not suit to me. for me.
but why? crazy.
i asking myself for many time, from start.
ya, we are friend. just a normal friend.
from when? the party? ya, 10th feb.
because everybody said we are.
for what happen i will start the feeling?
Really can’t understand. fong mao! really is!
unbalance. maybe is unbalance.
you are the 1st one reject me in my whole life..
wow! amazing! You are the real man man!!
why you want to reject me???
that's why i feel that you are so special.
i like you because of you reject me!!
shit the logic!
it's so long time i don't have this feeling.
for how many years? 3years! is 3 years.
huhuxx..i just enjoy the feeling to reject people.
but you! OYS! so dare. you are the man!
dare to reject me.
what's the point?
not enough good? or..not enough b?
not attractive? haha...
ok..i don’t know your mind.
you said don't want to hurt me. but you hurt seriously.
you said don't want let me give people gossip. but no,
all of them already solid say that is you reject me.u keat har..
they sang the song for me.
fang sheng. cheng zao. cuo de ren.
huhuzz.. all is ask me don't disturb you anymore.
why? your brothers really are caring to you.
ya, i am alone again.
'there is not worth for you to cry for the people not appreciate you.'
a friend told me.thanks.
but, cry? i never cry for u, S. never..
just feeling not well..hurt tiok lo..serious that type.
' leave and forget it the best way for you.'
can..you ask him come chase me and let me reject.
then i feel better..
i am bad right?
i told the friend like this.
i no love, i just unbalance..
but they keep set me in i love S so much..
what the hell...i nothing to say...
BTW,i done many crazy thing..
really!!!game started that time.
whenever resign nor buy car.
hahaxx!! what i done?
follow the feeling. i want and i did.
i played a lot during those time.
i just let me..just follow the feeling.
but i know the limit. i din cross the line.
i still understand play is play.
but still need to protect own self.
i know and i do.
how many i have, all is fake and stop in finally.
yup.. no feeling and no mood.
from..the 10th feb party, until end of march.
was my worst months. i think.
until 23th Mar. the last night i with you.
in dance floor. i realize that was our last.
until this day you still said to me. 'we are friend.'
from 2nd mar until 23 mar. u keep remind me,'we are friend'
you know it? i hate this word so much!
what the hell friend.!
anyway, thanks.
for keep this mind.
finally i know what's the wrong of me.
how come i have this feeling that unbalance?
k.i ki xiao.
i know, i quit own self from this field.
sorry, no love for me.
love? is fake.
from before to now.never change.
what i always say or ..what.. can give. really is like.
who are the one love people, is waiting for lose and getting hurt..i think.
that's why.
i keep let people misunderstand me.
they don't know me.
and i seldom explain, sometime totally do not.
it's i like the feeling people misunderstand me?
am i crazy girl?
k..all is end.
finish.
i trust, i believe it,
i am recover now.
i can just keep it as my memory.
i can continue my right way which i want it since before.
AND, i on the way now.
actually, i nothing d. really la..
just unbalance.
and actually, i have one staff interview and i take him.
from middle of mar.
i..feel stable with this staff..
not means i flower... i told what.
i nothing. just unbalance..just keep let people misunderstand.
boh huat ar....
so, i start let me quite down.
and now..i feel good. thanks my staff.
i won’t close the company,
and i hope you do not resign.
i need you.^^
i am back.
BECAUSE.I AM WHO I AM.
please believe me..i am good now..i still is me...
and promise won't touch about this again.
i really not suitable to L people.hehe..
what i talking about? haha..
about love? it is fresh to the topic har..
